Gone but not forgotten

Well let's see.  Haven't written in about a month.  Why you may ask, if there is anyone that does read this besides myself.  I had a baby.  June 14th at about 930am.  2 1/2hrs of labour and pushing and a proud Mommy of a 9lb 6oz baby Boy.  The fastest delivery EVER, I swear LOL.  If hubby was any slower that day I would of had him in the van on the ride over to the hospital.  Other than that I've been a bit busy to post.  First moment I've had since I had him to put anything on here.  Sorry, but colic is not my friend!!

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1 more before Baby#2 arrives

Well I thought I'd better post something now while I still have some free time on my hands before baby #2 comes.  Officially told by Doc yesterday that I can go 'anytime'.  Wow that narrows it down, thanks :)  

Due date is June 20th, next full moon is June 7th (sunday)  so who knows any time between then is when I'll be going.  I am thinking I'm more likely next week.  DS was born two weeks early so this one I think will be following in big brothers footsteps.  My biggest curiosity is what he'll look like.  Will he be a mini hubby again like DS #1 is or will he look more like my brother or my mom's side of the family.  Curious to know :)  

Friday baby dropped ALOT.  Bladder was in constant pain, thought I was going to die every time I have to walk anywhere, Sat was just as bad. (TMI sorry)  Gravity was not my friend those days.  Yesterday was ok, bearable to walk as long as it wasn't far.  Today has been FANTASTIC.  No pain/issues at all.  Makes me nervous though LOL, the calm before the storm kind of vibe here. 

 I am all packed and ready to go so is DS.  He's going to a friends and he'll be there till Gram can come get him.  He's getting excited.  Went to a Big Brother thing at the hospital (did a tour, sang songs, learned to diaper his teddy bear) and he seemed to enjoy it.  He was playing with his teddy bear on Sunday and was putting on a new diaper, feeding it 'soup' and bottle and burping him and even putting him down for a nap in the bassinet.  So sweet.  We'll see how he does when the real thing arrives.  The noise will be the worst part for him.  He doesn't like loud noises so the crying might be a issue for him to handle.  He'll learn soon enough to tune it out like most siblings do (haha I'm the oldest and have two siblings, that's how I got through it :p )  

DH is off to work for the night, should be home around 2am or so.  Hope he doesn't have too many more last minute work things cause who knows when I'll go!  Oh well, c'est la vie (hope I spelled that right, u get the idea)

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33 weeks

I am now at 33 weeks and 2 days.  So that is what......about 8 months pregnant?  Sure, give or take (math was never my best subject)  Kiddo is in school today and DH is at work.  So house to myself, yay!  Got some cleaning done on the main floor, rest of the house can wait.  Think it's time I pass on some of the household stuff to the fellas cause this chicky's just about had it.  My hips are killing me today.  Went for a nice walk yesterday, didn't over do it (so I thought) and woke up around 1am barely able to move.  Ah, the life of a pregnant woman.  This AM while taking kiddo to school I had a heck of a time walking, pulled muscles on both sides now, not just the left hip.  I am a walking wreck I tell ya LOL

I have hit the nesting stage as well this weekend.  Rearranged the baby room and kitchen.  Hubby had a nice surprise when he came home from work on Sunday night :P  I heard him walking (and swearing quietly) into some of the stuff a couple of times (teehee).  I packed DS#2's stuff on the weekend into a suitcase, now just my stuff.  That seems to be the harder task at hand right now.  I need all the clothes I have so I don't want to pack up too much or else I'll have nothing to wear now :)  Might go do some shopping tomorrow while I am out getting Mothers Day gifts for my mom/MIL.  

Speaking of Mothers Day, I have NO idea what to get MIL.  She just got a new puppy, and it's chewing on everything she has.  Has eaten a library book, part of a rocking chair, shoes, u name it she's chewed it.  Was thinking a nice plant for her house but worried puppy might eat it too :P  Meh, I'll check out some ideas online and maybe then I'll come up with something.  My mom is pretty easy.  Thinking of plants for outside but not sure on what she would want so maybe some $ so she can pick her own.

Well I'm off, trying to figure out what to make for dinner.  Hmmmmmm, Peanut Butter & Jam Sandwiches are always a hit :)

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What fun :)

Well not really.  Not to the normal person anyways, but for me it's informative.  I have a mission today to find out where to get the cheapest diapers for baby #2.  Was thinking of cloth but that is going to take up WAAAAAAAAAY to much time cleaning/laundry etc for me.  So disposable it is.  I did a price comparison at No Frills (local cheap brand store by Loblaws) and going in a bit to check out Zellers and see what they carry and costs.  Going to the library as well.  A new Patricia Cromwell book has arrived for me there (well new to me maybe not to anyone else) and since I have finished the first 7 of the True Blood series I need something new to read.  

Last Lamaze class was last Tuesday, hospital tour is this Tuesday night.  Will be by myself since DH has to work till late on Tuesday.  I don't mind, since I am the one who will need to be there might as well make myself knowledgeable as possible on where to go :)  I am now 32 weeks along and man am I starting to get tired alot again.  The baby can't move as well since there is not as much room and man can I feel it.  Sleeping is starting to be a issue.  I HATE sleeping on my sides.  I am a back sleeper and so miss that position.  Only 8 weeks to go, I have to focus on that.  Other than that I am doing well.  No swelling of feet/hands...yet.  My blood pressure has been good so that's good to know.  I have a doc's appt on Wednesday AM.  Usual thing, measure my stomach, check baby's heartbeat, ask me if I have any questions or concerns.  So far so good this time around :)  

Well I'm off, library is open and I should go before I have to pick up DS :)  Be free while I can :)

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Meltdowns, how I love thee

Well DS just had a meltdown at the park.  Good god how I hate these.  I feel like every parent is looking at me when this is happening.  He's screaming and crying the whole way home and I'm just livid from him doing this.  He decided to have a fit cause he wanted to see his friend on the baseball field, well they were playing baseball and I told him no, to wait till they are done hitting the ball.  He throws himself down and does his best impression of a spoiled brat.  He then proceeds to BITE my leg.  Not hard but enough to know u are getting bitten.  I was shocked.  I first made him get up, brushed off the dust then started the walk of shame.  I don't like this walk.  I feel terrible that I can't make him stop, feel bad that he's feeling this way and obviously can't handle whatever it is that's upsetting him.  I also don't like this walk cause it seems like every parent within a 10 mile radius happened to be at the park at that time. I was so angry when we got home.  I sent him to his room.  Took out all his toys in his room.  He's not going to the park again till Sunday (might be Saturday, days tend to run differently to us adults and kids) and no TV at night before bed.  He did say sorry on the way home, but he was only saying it so he could stay and I need to teach him that he can't bite people without some consequence, right?  He then apologized at home after I sent him to his room for a bit.  I gave him a big hug, and thanked him for saying sorry but that what he did was wrong and he won't be going to the park for a while.  He just nodded his little head and my heart broke.  I started to bawl.  I felt awful for snapping at him earlier when we got home.  I told him I was sorry, for yelling, and my yelling didn't help much.  I feel terrible and don't feel like I'm a good Mom at times.  Sad thing is that if this is upsetting me now, how am I going to handle this when he gets older ? *sigh  Crappy thing is he had a good day today.  Had fun at a friends house for a play date, great afternoon playing the backyard, wasn't till we got to the park that he pulled this stunt.  Though ... he does do it every couple of weeks.  Can't expect him to be perfect all the time, cause God only knows I'm not. :)  Bad days can happen and I guess I should be more prepared for them cause baby #2 is on his way so it's going to get tougher.  Nice thing is, tomorrow is a new day, fresh start.

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Been a while dear friend

Been a while since I was on here.  About a month.  Haven't had too much to write about and also with the nicer weather I haven't been online as much.  Trying to get out and enjoy the sunshine while I can before more spring snow arrives (which it did last week, blah)  My tulips are starting to come out and so are my daffodils that I planted last fall.  I love those things.  Easiest thing to plant and takes no effort on my part.  I try to have a green thumb, but I tend to kill stuff rather than grow. 

Started our Childbirth classes this week.  Kiddo went to his uncles and we went to the class.  We are the oldest couple there (I swear), and our instructor is like the lady from Role Models ("I'm not here to service you, I'm here to service little boys" line from the movie LOL)

My brother had his engagement party last weekend.  Good food!  Wow, those Italians like to eat!   The lunch was at 130 and we didn't get everything (incl dessert) till 4.  Ate so much that hubby and I didn't have room for dinner till 9 that night.  Can't wait for the wedding :P

Today is Good Friday so everything is closed.  Tomorrow we are going to Hamilton to visit my InLaws new place and see their new puppy.  They got a Newfie, female, and her name is Gracie.  They have had her on order since Xmas and she is now here.  DS is more excited to see the dog than his cousin I think :)  Sunday we are off to visit my parents for a little get together, nothing formal,  just burgers on BBQ kind of idea.  That is also the day DS gets his Scooter.  He's going to love it!  His one friend at school has one that he takes to the park and he is just fascinated with it.  We got him a new bike helmet too so now he can finally ride his two wheel bike instead of his tricycle.  We'll see if he remembers how to ride it :P  Weather is supposed to be wonderful this weekend so that is good news.  Gets him outside to blow off the stink as my mom used to say.

Will try to write again, but thanks for the reminder Al :)  Glad to see someone at least is reading this.

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Lazy Sunday

Today is a lazy Sunday.  Well, not that lazy.  Got changed out of our PJs at least.  Went for a walk to the store and DS got his Ring Pop and I got my paper.  Love how the weather has been pleasant.  Been nice to go out for walks again.  Now just need the puddles to disappear and we'll be in better shape for the Park :)  

DH went through some stuff in the garage yesterday and found a BUNCH of baby clothes and clothes for DS.  Nice that he has some new (used) stuff for around the house to wear.  And wonderful that we have some more baby stuff too.  Clothes are getting expensive these days.  It really depends on where you go I think.  I tend to hit Walmart/Zellers for kids stuff.  Even for myself.  Not bad stuff there sometimes and not bad price either.  I do like the 2nd time around place by us.  They have the odd good piece or  the Winners in Whitby is good.  I like it better than the one in Oshawa.  More organized and cleaner :P.  So today has been doing laundry, sorting clothes, trying to find spots for all this stuff.  Going to get more boxes tomorrow.  Make it easier to know what sizes we have and stack in closets that way.  Once the sizes are outgrown, no more saving.  Shipping to closest Goodwill I can find.  Save us some space and someone else can use the stuff.  

Was hoping to get DS out for a play date today, but didn't happen.  Now coming to that time of year when it's getting nice out and I don't want him inside the whole time, but so wet and muddy (and still snowy/icy in spots) that I don't want him too dirty.   Hate doing laundry all the time, but guess I better get used to it eh.  With #2 on the way, it's bound to be like that.  

Oh, thought of another two names for baby boy #2.  Evan is one and Ethan is the other.  Not sure which one we like more.  I like Evan, don't hear it often.  Trying to go for names that there isn't 4 of in the same classroom when he starts school.  

There was always 2 Jennifer's in my classes when I was in high school.  Public school wasn't bad for me, went to a SMALL school.  I mean small.  Only 12 of us in Gr8 graduation :)  Yeah, it's that small.  They shut that school down which is sad, but they didn't have the students to fill it up.  Any kids that are still in the area are shipped to town now.  So instead of the 1/2 hr bus ride it's now what, 45mins? UGGGG I'd hate to be on that bus ride now :P

Anyways, Best Wishes!

Wanted to post something today.  Feel like I should make more of a effort to use this a bit more and maybe get my head around stuff a bit better.  I find writing stuff out does help, puts things in perspective.  Creative juices do not want to work today.  Everything is quite jumbled up today, it might be from the pregnancy, or its just my normal personality. :)

Tonight is the Oscars.  81st ceremony.  Hugh Jackman is hosting so hope he does well.  He did a good job with the Tony awards I understand, but this is a bit different and bigger.  Supposedly they have changed the Oscars to more of a nightclub atmosphere this year and have kept presenters hush hush.  Trying to make some mystery and get the fellow joe like me to watch.  I can never watch the whole thing, I click back and forth between shows and usually just wait till the AM and read online who won what.  Being a mommy to a little one who loves the occasional 5am wake up (uggg he's been sleeping in till 6-7 but the nights I stay up late are the next mornings he wakes up EARLY, never fails) I try to be in bed at a 1/2 decent hour.  But I thought I'd put who I think will win what, see how right I am in the AM

1.Best Actor - Sean Penn

2. Best Actress - Kate Winslet

3. Best supporting actor - Josh Brolin (think Heath will win it thought, lots of hype on him)

4. Best supporting actress - Penelope Cruz

5. Best picture - Slum Dog Millionaire

6. Best Animated - Walle

Let's see how I do :)  Don't ask me how I voted, I haven't seen any of these movies so I cannot judge how well they act or the movie is.  Mostly going with the hype of the news.

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The Office

(picture of offices/homes from CN Tower, summer 08)

I just watched Season 3 of The Office.  Getting Season 4 on Sunday, can't wait. (missed a few shows in between Season 3 and 4 but have seen all the current ones on now) This show is written quite well and must say a great hit over here.  It started out on BBC and it's great!  I have only seen two episodes of the original, though we did discover that we can rent both seasons at our local video store.  I hope to rent it next time we go in, nothing like snuggling on the couch with your sweetie and laughing your butt off :)  Dwight is a favorite of mine.  I am not sure why, probably cause I have worked with someone like him.  Not totally, but some of the quirks he has are familiar to me.  Michael Scott is sweet (at times) in his own goofy way.  I must agree with my BIL that the episode that Jim dresses up as Dwight and Dwight dresses up as Jim is quite good.  I LOL a lot during that one.  

30 Rock is another favorite show of ours.  Love Alec Baldwin's character and Tina Fey.  Funny lines in that show as well (I like to go to there)  Hubby has some good taste in shows, he introduced me to both of them and would like to say thanks for keeping me entertained.

Off I go, it's Thursday and they should be starting soon!

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Canadians Defined

http://members.shaw.ca/kcic1/canisms.html

There is a link I found this AM to help out others on what we are all about.  Got a laugh out of it and that is one thing we are famous for (making fun of ourselves).  Enjoy :)

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I love Ontario

    I Love Ontario ....

           It's winter in Ontario
          And the gentle breezes blow,
           70 miles per hour at 52 below!
          Oh, how I love Ontario
           When the snow's up to your butt.
          You take a breath of winter air
           And your nose is frozen shut.
           Yes, the weather here is wonderful,
           I guess I'll hang around.
           I could never leave Ontario,
          'Cause I'm frozen to the ground.

Got this quote from a email today.   Had to put it on here cause the way the weather has been in Jan/Feb so far this year has been pretty chilly.  Though I should get used to it, it comes EVERY year.  Still chills me to the bone though.  Wish I was a kid.  They don't seem to have a sense of cold.  My DS could go outside for 2 hrs in -22C weather and not let him bug him until you told him to come inside.

The above picture was taken on Feb 1/09 at our farm.  We decided to walk back cause I had this loopy idea last spring that I wanted a landscape picture of all the seasons of the same spot.  Winter was the only one left to get.  The pictures turned out wonderful but getting back there was a challenge.  We didn't have a snowmobile or ATV so just our legs it was.  What a mistake that was LOL.  As u can see someone had used a plow to go back, assuming for snowmobiles, but wasn't plowed in A LONG time.  So we had to walk on the snowbanks cause at least it was semi-packy.  The middle of the trail was up to our knees, upper thighs on the little guy.  Couldn't guess if your next step meant u were above the snow or knee deep.  So slow and steady was the pace.  Once in the woods, it was pretty good.  Trees blocked most of the drifting snow so it wasn't as deep and the snowmobile tracks were helpful to walk on.  Times like that I am glad I live in the city.  I do miss this area in the summer mind you.  Just being around trees, nature, though the mosquitoes I can do without :P  

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Freak out

Ok.  I am at a point in my life that I should stop being so cynical on myself.  I am 33 yrs old, 34 in Sept (yes i do admit my true age, why fight it)  I am such a worry wart on stupid stuff, from big to small that I am going to end up with a ulcer I swear!  I worry about DH job, that he is the only bread maker in the house.  I worry that we don't have enough stored away for a rainy day cause I know something BIG is going to break in the next little while and we have NOTHING to save it with.  

uggggggggg  

Then there is the lack of work for me.  Not really lack, just I have no education.  HS is all I have, went to college for year and 1/2 and got nothing to show for it.   I am 33 and still don't know what I want to be when I grow up (i am forever 18 inside)  I worry that all I can find are these shitty retail jobs that make no money and have crappy hours.  Since I don't have a education I can't find a half decent job.  How embarrassing is that you are my age and can't support yourself!  I can't get a car or buy a house.  I have nothing.  And I know people are going to say well you have stuff.  Yeah stuff that DH got.  I'd like to be able for once to be able to contribute to something.  Like me buying a car or getting a new furnace.  I've tried to go back to school a couple of times and half my problem is $$ for it.  I get going then can't finish it cause $$ runs out or else I feel guilty using $$ when it could be used for some bill or something for the house.  I just want a skill that I can use just incase DH gets laid off/fired/quits his job.  Others will say well you shouldn't dwell on 'things'.  Guess what, I do, it's how the world works.  Sorry to say it we live in a material world and I am a material girl.  (sorry Madonna) 

 I got to find something for me to do, maybe that is what is wrong with me.  Idle hands need something to do or else they get into trouble.  Being pregnant isn't helping my mood any tonight.  I usually don't let stuff bother me to much but it is tonight.  Same idea running through my head, I got to do something, something to bring in the $$ as well.  

Maybe some ice cream will help me with my worries :)

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The weather is supposed to get a high of 7C on Saturday.  Calling for rain though.  Oh well, better than snow I guess.  My only issue is that snow pile at the end of my driveway is now a block of ice from all the freezing and thawing we've been getting, how will the rain affect it?  Going to go out once in a while tomorrow and chip away at it, hoping to widen out the end of the driveway.  Little bit more room can't hurt :)

Found out on the 28th of Jan that we are having another little boy.  Quite excited since DS was so awesome the first time around, hoping this one is too.  I just worry about Colic.  That is one of my BIGGEST fears is Colic.  Heard lots about it.  Crying non-stop for hours, lack of sleep for everyone, poor little one just getting no comfort what so ever.  Upside is that we don't have to do much clothes shopping since I pretty much kept everything of DS #1.  Just need a playpen and a crib.  Not bad for people who tend to keep everything :P  (my DH is terrible for collecting EVERTHING!!)  Due date is still June 20th, I think it might be later.  It'll come when it wants to come so trying to be prepared now for it.  Unlike last time........he came two weeks early.  Had nothing, just a bassinet.  Some diapers, formula, but no clothes really, just hand me down stuff from my Aunt.  The amount of clothes changes that happens when they are first born is crazy, laundry all the time!

DS is doing so well in school I think.  His printing has improved a lot.  He worked on his Valentines cards for the class last night and was doing quite well with it.  Some mistakes but totally normal ones like printing some backwards :)  It's cute but better get it now before he thinks it's the right way and the teacher begins to wonder what's up LOL

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ugggggggg

I am so annoyed. I put up my opinion on a site, guess I put it to literately and I get jumped all over on it.  I guess I jumped all over them first?  I tried not too but guess some people are sensitive.  Sarcasm is hard to interpret into the written word.  :P

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Today

Today was a good day.  The snow that was supposed to fall, didn't.  That is always good news.  The snow piles are getting quite large and starting to wonder where to put it all :P  

DS has a cold, hasn't had one since the end of Oct so that is good news.  The not have a cold in a while, not the cold itself :)  Hoping I don't get it cause I don't think I'm allowed to take anything besides a tylenol *sigh.  Oh how I long for the days I can take NyQuil and sleep on my back again.  Only 4 and 1/2 months left.  Then no sleep for a year, then HOPEFULLY, I can get at least the 6 hrs I normally get now :)  Which is a blessing that I get that, should go to bed earlier I know, but then I wouldn't get to watch TV (which I love, even if it's garbage) and just hang out with DH.

Not sure if I'll send DS to school tomorrow.  Depends on how he is doing.  Don't really need other kids to get sick, so might just keep him home.  It's only a day and it's only JK, right?  But....I then feel guilty keeping him home away from there where he could be learning something important that day.  Meh, I tend to over worry, even worse now that I'm pregnant.  Just typing about it is causing the heart burn to act up.  Stress does not do well with me when I'm pregnant.  Had heart burn all through out pregnancy with DS when I was working.  This time around isn't so bad since I'm home now.  Mixed emotions at times, but that seems to be normal.  I think.  I am not a shrink :)

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Saturday, Jan 3 2009

Happy New Year!

We didn't go out anywhere this year.  We just sat at home and watched movies till 1 am.  Glad they were good movies or else I would of been pissed :P  We did pause them long enough to watch the ball drop in NYC on Dick Clarks show.  That guy is getting OLD.  How does he still have such dark hair and no grey? (I know he dyes it, I'm being sarcastic)

DS's birthday is coming up.  Decided on a dinosaur theme this year.  He is having 5 kids over.  5 kids all around 5 yrs old and younger in my house for two hours.  Am I nuts?  Well, I guess so, and it's only for two hours.  To be honest they will be fine down in the basement.  The whole thing is Jake's play room anyways.  They'll keep each other entertained than me trying to get them to play games the whole time.  I got two games and 1 craft for them to do.  (all dino theme)  We bought some decorations yesterday at Dollerama ( have I mentioned how much I LOVE this store?)  Started cutting out shapes yesterday, going to paint them on Monday while he is in school then start putting them up around the basement.  Going to have to decided what toys need to be hidden in his room though.  He has certain toys that I know he loves and might get upset if someone else plays with them.  I should leave them out so he learns to share, but knowing these are popular toys he might not be the only one fighting for them.  Still have to get his birthday presents.   I have a idea for 1 toy, but not really sure on what else to get him.  He got lots of stuff for Christmas.  I do that every year, buy a lot at Christmas then when his birthday comes around I have no clue what to get him :P

Going to the Sound of Music in TO today.  Going with a couple of girlfriends. First dinner then the show.  DS is going to Grandma's house.  DH had to work so he's out.  Though we do get a ride home from him which is great.  Don't have to run for the GO Train this time around :)  Only crappy thing is that I have to wear my winter boots.  Hate this time of year.  Get all dressed up and then u have your crappy boots.  I could get some nicer, dressy ones.  To be honest I can't.  I'll get them and only wear them once and what a waste of $$ to me.  I am practical. I am a mommy who goes out in the snow with DS and goes tobogganing or shovel snow out of the driveway.  I need a pair that is warm and practical not fashionable.  Winter don't care what kind of boots you wear, as long as they are warm and keep you dry.

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